stranger

2007-03-13T09:54:00.000+08:00

today i was gonna go out with lenice and gis but didnt cuz ive gotta stay home and do work. Got to discipline my self much much more. im not going to waste my holidays one bit. Next weeks my birthday and i really hope i dont get a white card. Every time its my birthday, i get a darn white card. its so not fair but hey like aint fair now is it? Actually when i look at it in another maybe i birthday isnt so cursed after all, i guess i learn something new (in the form of a white card) each year. hahah retarded but hey it consoles me. So anyway this after gonna go to smps and train lol. so called la.. yeah meeting ira for lunch first though, havent spent much time alone with that girl lol(: well im off to work hard. yay for me. oh and for the people who dont know the e learn website, its elearn.sportsschool.edu.sg and the math site is ace-leaning.com yup. happy holidays(:

2007-03-10T15:53:00.000+08:00

went for u17 and u19 trials. i didn't do well. somehow i got in. God's way of giving me a second chance? i just don't know what happened to me. i can't play like how i used to and EVERYONE CAN SEE I'M GOING WAY WAY DOWN. i try my best to hold on to that last bit of hope left but its barely enough but God will pull me through and i believe that. Recently i wrote about a value i hold dear to and wish i had. This value was resilience. i dont know why i wrote it down but i did. i explained why it meant so much to me. But what i realised later on was that to have resilience i have to fall so that i can bounce back. i have fallen, its time for me to bounce back

i will survive!

2007-03-09T20:51:00.000+08:00

I GOT WHAT I WANTED. TODAY SUCKED BUT ITS NOT GONNA AFFECT ME ANYMORE AFTER TONIGHT. IM DONE.

2007-03-04T18:34:00.000+08:00

woke up kinda instantly at nine.. then i used the computer for a while, attmpted my work etc then i went for drum class which was HELL TOUGH but i enjoyed it. see the irony -.- anyway after that, had lunch with my dad then went for this meeting thing.. they were explaining TONS of info i didnt know about my history and all.. yeahh and all my relatives were malay and i am too which is a surprise but yeahh.. and i was supposed to be learning malay but my dad thought tamil would be easier.. wth? okay well i left earlier, took a cab back. my dads still there enjoying life. i mean the food just rocks! haha anyway i gotta attempt SOME work so that i'll like have less over the week, go nash!(: and now its back to school.

2007-03-03T11:59:00.000+08:00

okay this week was alright, we had our semi finals.. were meeting north vista in e finals this on friday at yishun i think its at 4.. i doubt we'd have a single supporter cuz everyone is gonna be at home.. yeahh and like its gonna be quite embarassing with our side being empty but oh well i guess thats just normal or something... well i dont know wad im gonna be doing this weekend... gonna be boring but relaxing i guess yeah(: went out last night with queenie and faris. we watched dream girls it ended at about nine.. they had to go but i was like wanting to stay in orchard but i figured its too pathetic to roam orchard alone on a friday night lol.. so yeahh.. and to ira plus all the netballers that tease me, im not retarded!): just UNIQUE in a very SPECIAL and FUNNY plus AWKWARD kinda way hahha

2007-02-24T22:55:00.000+08:00

okay today wasn't a very good day, one cuz of the spammer, i mean i never said ONE THING about his God. so anyway it goes to show how sensitive people are. and of course people will suffer their consequances of putting other beliefs down. but hey thats their problem. anyway today in church i learnt about your identity. imagine if your talents, studies popularity, everything was stripped away, then who are you? ever thought of that? well it's time to(:
oh and there's a nice quote i like, about faith

faith is taking the first step without being able to see the staircase ahead.
-Mark King Luther Jr

definition: faith is beliving beyond all reasons and fears, everything and simply just believing.

to my team, have faith you guys, we will get the champs for our school, and our team(: lets fight hard together and shine.

to Queenie--> thanks for sticking up girl, we're not ashamed(:

2007-02-24T14:16:00.000+08:00

**to the annonymous spammer who says my God is a piece of crap

i don't know what i did to you that you've got such a huge problem but then again, maybe you just have a huge problem with yourself. i think you need some help. really.. i think you need to talk to someone to learn to have more self worth and confidence. you try to bring down others because you want to feel good about yourself. i'm sure u have good qualities that makes u a great person. so why don't u try to use that. that'll definately make you a better person and maybe you can live life much better. and i know it's killing you right now that u can't say anything back to what i have to say. and i know it'll make u hate me more. but im really glad u actually did come along saying bad stuff about my God because it's now that my faith has strngthen and i am so glad that im not an insecure person like you. i mean really you don't have anything better to do, do you? i know you're from my school, so why don't u go study and work harder rather than amuse yourself with such petty and unbeneficial things. i hope you'll change. maybe. and hey u probably do have a God cuz u believe in going to hell well, i hope that you can learn to become a better person cuz u just made a really bad name for your God. If u really do need help go find someone. or if u dare, come to me(:

2007-02-24T13:01:00.000+08:00

i think i tag more than i post. which is what everyone does right? haha. well i don't quite care what u people think of the sec three netballers but thats your business not ours. if we didnt cut in your way,you don't cut in ours. but it really goes to show your insecurity. like how u just HAVE TO put down others so it makes you feel better? that shows your self worth alot eh? but at least i know that i rely my trust on God and he carries me through. I can easily erase what happens out of my life. but for you, your guilt will be an unerasable stain(: so anyway, this short week was kind of fun in a way. like the matches were good. i had lots of fun. and hanging out with ira and geri was fun, we dont do that quite often so yeahh hahah. thanks you guys(:

2007-02-20T06:21:00.000+08:00

oh my goodness! its 620 and i am not asleep yet! the last time that ever happened was in november last year while i was on the phone. this time i was watching one tree hill.. i finished season three! ahhh and im so darn desperate, im like tryin to watch season4 right now, ohh man i so so so need the CD which is not out so dream on nash.. ahh i so love sam, keshia and aqilah for getting me hooked. i am SO in love(: and i doubt i'll be sleeping though i oh so badly want to (:

2007-02-19T23:51:00.000+08:00

my darling and i(:

me((=

cool effect eh, its called 'shaky hands' hahah

isnt this ever so sweet((:

Went to queenie's house for CNY today. it was totally funn haha playing with her cousins. and chatting away with her. Eating of course, most definately hahah then i went to Giselles house at like 7pm, that was a blast as well hahah yupp.. sadly i havent got any pics of the two of us dangs. lol well anyway im occupyin myself with one tree hill aahahh im so so so totally in love! lols oh and i do feel a sense of accomplishment cuz i did my lit work, my math work and my english work, just a little more left. go nashii ((:

2007-02-17T22:20:00.000+08:00

this was probably super long ago but i find it so darn funny and retarded

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Lyz-w34ZYrM

2007-02-17T18:08:00.000+08:00

is it possible to want to go out, be able to but end up not going out in the end? well if it's impossible then i have done the impossible! i've been home the WHOLE time. and let me tell you it feels both good and bad all at the same time. i'm thinkin of going out but i still can't decide. anyway, after watching tv for like the whole day, i realised something. On tv a kiss solves everything and somehow seems to lure the guy. i think that's nonsensical and if people out there think its all that takes, i think its dumb cuz there's just WAY more than that. but hey who wouldnt want a kiss? hahah : DD i'm bein cheeky i know : D

2007-02-16T20:09:00.000+08:00

sorry to those i turned down on valentines day, i didnt wanna do it. you guys are juat REALLY GOOD FRIENDS to me. and i hope this doesn't change anything. i guess i just have no feelings for anyone right now. Anyway school was awesome(: well kinda i guess, all the results and all they were pretty good. i reached ALL my targets which was what i was aiming for anyway hehh.. ohh chinese new year is here, time to rest heh : DD ahhh im gonna be so lonely for two weeks cuz my dear jannah's going to birmingham which is in the same country as my family! SO NOT FAIR )): i soo totally wanna. i hope she does great, i know she will. and so will mariam(: hahah ah wad the heck and everyone else going there. lols but im secretly rooting more for mariam and jan cuz they're my babes(: hahha yay! ive got 4 days of rest and getting fat hahaha .. im kidding. i guess i gotta self train and study.. but most importantly rest(: that is my number one priority for this holiday!(: goo nashi heh.. i had lunch with my team well kinda laa.. but oh gosh i love them(: they're such sweet and lovely people. Well from my point of view anyway, i dont know if they're like secretly talking bout me hahah! no ones perfect. love you guys(:

my secret stash of peanut butter in the fridge is gonna keep me going these four days hehe : DDD

2007-02-11T09:43:00.000+08:00

okay my blog is like so super dead, im here to revive it! haha.. yesterday i went for a love actually seminar?talk? something like that. yeah it was like from 10 till 6 but it was so fun and very true. We learnt that it doesnt matter what age you want to get into a relationship but more like when you're mature( the ability to respond) when you're reigning in what your priorities are then you can go ahead. hahah well yeahh and there are many things you should learn to look out for in a guy like is he responsible, financially able(doesnt have to be rich), he's gotta send you home(i like that part hahha) yeahh well.. i'll be patient and i'll wait. oh and i am craving for donuts super bad thanks to someone. haha. yeah looking forward to go back to school then again im so drained and tired. GO NASH, GOD IS WITH YOU (:

2007-01-27T12:12:00.000+08:00

okay other than the very long and draggy talk(which wasnt that bad) awards night was fun cuz we could take all those crazy photos. much better than last year(: hahah yeahh. oh and those i took pictures with, please send me the pics from your cam! hahah

blur but i like it(:

mr photogenic(:

drew and nash

my sweet roomie

bams and nash

mariam jannah and nash : DD

my darling! and me(:

sweetness

jiayi and nash

wan and nash. im so oily! haha

okay im lazy i'll upload the rest later but so far these are my favourites hahah yupp : D

2007-01-14T17:17:00.000+08:00

okay im kinda goofy lookin and sort of cut off haha

hahah gosh it was a blast hanging out with chris haha.. tons of fun. and many embarassing pics of him ;) ohh and drum class felt good i feel the need to practice and buck up hehe.. well ive gotta get back to school soon. i dont know if im looking forward to it..

2007-01-13T23:42:00.000+08:00

haha gosh it was a blast man(: yupp there was like about 41 of us : DD hahah yeahh. the food was great and had loads of fun. Who'd have thought some of the soccer guys were friendly lol.

my darling(:
a few of us
fadzly the king
darling again(:

sorry hin ann the pic of the two of us was blur ): hahah yupp had a blast : DD

2007-01-13T17:14:00.000+08:00

today was a real dead day. ive been so tired and hungry! yupp going for christina's party later on and i'll probably blog about that and hopefully get some pics taken(:

2007-01-07T01:04:00.000+08:00

This was the first week of school. Lets just say its started a bit unstable. but thank God he followed through(: and well things got better and i'm lookin forward to going back. But oh wow i was sick from the day i went to school but i tried to keep going and well here i am bedridden the whole day. i've never felt so sick before i feel like im gonna die la. Thats wad you get when u usually dont fall sick and suddenly do. Anyway the past few days i've been having bad dreams and i keep waking up in the middle of the night. Each day its something new and i wake up in tears. Not because im scared but its because these things are things close to my hearts. Quite a few of my dreams were about people close to me dying. And despite how painful it is to imagine these things, one thing striked me. If there were't bad dreams, we'd never realise how lucky we are to really have the things around us. So because of that i'm thankful for these bad dreams. Well i have been trying to make conscious effort to make sure i keep close bonds with those around me cuz i'll never know when they will go, or when i will.

There's one thing i wonder though, if bad dreams are good for us then are good dreams bad for us?Can anyone answer me that?

*For all of those people i've hurt please forgive me. Lets all be in good terms (:

2006-12-29T21:49:00.000+08:00

okay i thought it was a long time since i blogged but i just realised its only been 4 days(:
ive been having a good holiday so far and i AM looking forward to school. not being sarcastic(: heh yeahh.. i wanna start studyin, i feel so slackish a useless.. haha yupp.. well im gonna enjoy my last four days : DD

2006-12-25T23:17:00.000+08:00

merry christmas to everyone. this is a season for people to spread love. so keep spreading the love everyone. Spare thoughts for each other. today was a good day and i enjoyed it (: i hop everyone had a good day as well. Happy birthday Jesus(:

i love my jesus(:

2006-12-23T01:18:00.000+08:00

today was good.. except that i woke up late.haha yeahh.. and i went tiong bahru shopping... and then like i felt sick so i came home.. then at like 7 i went to orchard till 1130. I got my dress!! heh... suprisingly its green lols coolness eh... i'll like post pics here if i can heh : DD

2006-12-21T00:05:00.000+08:00

today was awesome. other than the fact that some idiot is ignorin me. i had tons of fun with sonia ira bhaama claudia shawallah and e soccer boys. we went to sentosa. played at the beach it was so much fun. Especially in the water. hahah got quite a few cute guys around heh... we all went vivo-ing took pictures and all. The soccer boys were fun hahah... i like going out with them and all my good friends like ira, bams etc hahah yupp. Anyway i think this is the best week ever. im so totally enjoying myself. i feel so free. hahah... yeahh and i love hanging out with all u guys hahah.. i think i can get used to this. hahha.. yeah.

2006-12-20T23:24:00.000+08:00

u have left me lost and clueless. i dont like that feeling

2006-12-18T10:16:00.000+08:00

i realised i haven't been blogging much. i didn't quite have the time. Anyway i have a confession to make.I'm selfish ): cuz i was supposed to go shopping for my friends presents and well....... i ended up buying lots of things for myself. But i still got some presents for my friends hehe... i couldn't resist.. Sorry guys(: anyway im enjoying havin my siblings over. It's fun and i kinda like taking care my bro sometimes. haha yupp.. anyway i miss all my friends. from church, from school, everywhere. why? i donno.. just one of those sudden feelings. I wish i made more effort sometimes. I think i'm just plain lazy and don't give a damn. im sorry to the friends ive neglected. i love all of you(: well today im gonna relax and watch eragon at night and stuff. then i'll be celebratin a mini surprise party for my daddy(: yup. thats all

looking for an invisible writing?none here. found a new way(: haha im lame.

2006-12-17T21:38:00.000+08:00

i think this is worth bein in my post.

Interesting piece of information

"There was a study done where a control group of 100 people were divided into two. 50 people watched a very funny, tear-of laughter type movie. 50 watched a very sad and tears of compassion type movie. At the end of the sessions researchers collected the "happy tears" and the "sad tears" with eye droppers. They found that "happy tears" are made up of brine...salt water and not a great deal else. However, the "sad tears" were found to contain the very same chemicals and enzymes that are found in tumors, ulcers and other such lumps and bumps and sicknesses through out the body. This test concluded that the body, when crying in sadness etc is literally flushing out all of the toxic-chemicals that accumulate and are a part of the sadness/heartache experience. Therefore if one holds back those tears, those toxic-waters will find somewhere else to deposit themselves... and prolonged lack-of-crying-release will guarantee that the body will accumulate a huge amount of internal pollution and toxicity that should have been released through the tears...is it any wonder that the eyes sting so much when we hold back our tears?"

Another interesting question: is that why women in general live longer than men?

2006-12-09T14:32:00.000+08:00

i feel the distance.

2006-11-30T00:28:00.000+08:00

wow i am such a pig. okay nvm that. i left my house at like 4? ish plus plus yeahh and we arrived at the place wayy to early and just kinda moodless but after that when everythin got started, it started to rock. The bonding that we had is just indescribable. hahah.. yeahh i'll probably put up the photos when i get em from the rest hahah yeahh. i dont think im gonna be bloggin anymore for quite some time i think. haha yupp thats about it(:

2006-11-28T18:26:00.000+08:00

im so so so tired goshh.. i just wanna sleep... today was fun, the sec2s had alot of team bonding(: heh... yeah going to giselle's house in a while.. i dont think i'll be like blogging much cuz my family's coming down on friday! goshh i so miss them. especially my sis, havent seen her for like a year plus. yupp i'll be off now...

2006-11-27T21:52:00.000+08:00

okay i went to cine at orchard just now with divya to watch material girls. i dont get why people dont think its nice. i think it rocks haha.. yupp i had a blast with divya! gosh it was such fun la.. hahah yupp yupp.. oh and chris wants me to mention the fact that we bumped so many times la hahah... yupp on sundayafter drums and today again.. its like so destined. hahaha happy chris? haha i love chris (: take care dude.. thanks divya for such a blast heh.. : DD

2006-11-27T15:13:00.000+08:00

today was alright so far.. but my body is like seriously aching from gym... im shaking right now... goshh.. yeahh.. i think i've been a lazy bum, never bother to socialize with people.. i used to be a social butterfly now i'm back to the pathetic caterpillar in the cocoon. goshh help me im just so lazy and not bothered, bad nash! hahah ohh yay later im gonna go to watch material girls with divya.. heard it was a bad show but both of us wanna watch it anyway haha... but gosh i feel so frail and tired heh..

cuz i like it like that

2006-11-26T23:22:00.000+08:00

okayy today was like a long day for me man heh... first went for drums... kinda confused and lost but it was okay in the end hahha then came home and rested then went to the airport to send mr davies off heh it was sad but really fun.. gosh i just love the holidays. i just realised i need a brand new wardrobe! and im gonna get em ahahha : DDDD

2006-11-17T17:59:00.000+08:00

today was an okay day so far. I went to discovery centre in the morning.. pretty okayy.. then i helped mr davies with a video well not much could be done today but yeahh. then after that i went back home with cherie in a taxi heh.. And once again came back to school for the cluster camp.. yeahh in the sdc now.. lost mood..Feeling very irritated.. but i better just get over it... oh and to everyone who thinks i'm not okay, i am.. and it irritates me that i'm okay but people think otherwise..Think what u want, not my problem..

2006-11-16T09:28:00.000+08:00

In com lab during science lesson now. This week was okay.. Actually no it wasn't. Something was bothering me. Actually many things. These things that bother me have always been in me but i guess i keep avoiding them by occupying myself.But now that i haven't got any work, my mind is reverting to my deep feelings. I never shared it with anyone, not even my best friend or anyone else for that matter. I don't want to burden people. I wanna be there for as many people as possible and keep going. I hate my stupid little problems their so lame and unimportant. But all the small ones came together till it became one big one. Now it hurts so bad. But i'm glad someone was able to look right through me, to be able to see that something wasn't right. He understood everything i felt and was there. I've never felt so relieved to be able to let out what i felt. God has blessed me with so many wonderful people around me and i'm very thankful (: I think this year in my life, i was never sure of what i wanted. I let the wind blow me by. I made so many mistakes. But these mistakes brought me where i am now. Made me who i am. I may not be much but i do know that i'm glad to be who i am. I'm thankful for the people who are in my life. For those leaving, the times won't be forgotten but it's time to move on. Our paths met at one time in our lives and its time for us to go our seperate ways again. May whatever we learnt from each other stay in our hearts forever(: If we're lucky we'll meet again.

2006-11-05T10:15:00.000+08:00

okay i slept at 6 this morning :/ woke up at nine and i dont feel tired. I dont mind sacrificing my sleeping time cuz it was way more than worth it. Today like in the wee hours of the morning i found out alot of things. Though it hurt i'm glad i did. Cuz thats life right? yeah it is haha.. i feel happier the past two days and i feel so i can't quite describe it. Yeah and i'm usually so moody and cranky to my dad but im so happy that im so nice to him as well. I wish i could feel this way all the time(:

When life knocks you down u just gotta get back up.i wont forget that. i'll keep going

ilovemycutelittlehamster(:

2006-11-04T23:52:00.000+08:00

i had so much funn today(: hahah we went like visiting and all and it really rocked laa hhahah especially going to someone's house hahah... yupp thanks all u guys... it was totally awesome. And thanks ridzwan for entertaining all the bunch of girls and being the only guy hehh ((:

2006-10-29T17:53:00.000+08:00

hmmm okay there isnt much to update on... oh yeahh paul's coming back! haha yay i miss him(: i gotta go to school early and do my project... thats all i guess yupp...

2006-10-27T10:08:00.000+08:00

today the newzealand people came to our school. We had to perform, i did the malay dance. It was fun. Though i could bearly remember any of the steps. But as long as we have fun, thats most important(: yupp now in science class with nothing to do. Later on we've got our pep work and all. Hopefully it would go well. Yeah after that my dad's coming for ptm and i'm gonna either hang around here or go to causeway point.. hahah yeahh.. hmm i dont wanna stay in school for so long! yeahh okayy thats about it..

2006-10-19T21:24:00.000+08:00

Be contented with what you have, dont be convetus. God is amazing and does wonders, have your faith and strength in him.

2006-10-19T21:15:00.000+08:00

You will never know joy and security until you know Jesus. All you christians out there, keep your faith strong and never let go, God will always be there with you. Make a difference in the world ! : D

2006-10-19T18:22:00.000+08:00

okayy went to causeway then met bhaama queenie geri yuen ling and amanda for a bit..had a funny little chat. Then met hin ann and we went to j8... there was like nothing much there.. yeahh so like to get i home i stopped at toa payoh then i dunno why laa but i felt like walking round and i did and let me tell u that place rocks,, there are ALOT OF NICE AND CHEAP stuff!! lol i didnt think it was possible for nice clothes, shoes and bags to be cheap but they really are.. yeahh i got two shirts. There are LOADS of shoes as well... i walked round like the front and the sides and the back like everywhere...hahah then bought bubble tea and yupp came home... hopefully queenie'll stick to her date tonight : DD hahaha : DD

2006-10-19T10:06:00.000+08:00

okay i think ystd was a real boring day at first but after a while, towards the night i did alot of things and i feel pretty good about it and i feel like i fufilled wadeva i was supposed to do well
: DD haha yeahh and err oh today im going to causeway meet up and stuff with e pep grp, whichever that can make it. Then going shopping with hin ann : DD whee haha... yupp then at night got a date with queenie at island creamery hahaha.. yeahh((:

2006-10-18T18:34:00.000+08:00

God promised a safe landing and a fixed destination but he never promised a smooth sailing(:

2006-10-17T22:26:00.000+08:00

the only song in my heart right now is the heart of worship. its soothing me. the only thing that can connect to me. All my "friends" aren't here. wad a disappointment.

2006-10-17T12:43:00.000+08:00

i just woke up..gosh.. anyway i was thinking(something i dont do very often)
then i realised, people keep hiding who they like..why? cuz you're shy?
cuz you're afraid that people would make fun of u?
if u're afraid they'd make fun then tell em c'mon friends will listen
and if u dont make fun of them, chances are they wont disturb u either
i think these stupid secrets are lame, it just tears friendships apart
sorry but all i can say is you people are so silly

2006-10-17T00:48:00.000+08:00

I guess I didn't read the sign at all
You call me darling
Say that you're in love
But it doesn't feel like you mean it
Although I've never been in love before
I'm sure it must be so much more than this
Cause I've never been so unhappy
Everything's wrong and backwards Upside down

2006-10-17T00:37:00.000+08:00

i am unsure
i can never decide
i'm blur
i don't know what i want
how am to make a decision like that?

2006-10-15T23:00:00.000+08:00

somethings missing, you):

i know we agreed to let go but why did it seem so easy for you? ):

sometimes if u look hard enough u can see the invisible

2006-10-14T21:55:00.000+08:00

i love random phone calls : DD call me haha

2006-10-14T21:41:00.000+08:00

okay had fun going out on friday reached home around 1am hahah... didnt wanna come home early... yeahh and tmr got drums then meet my aunty then on monday im goin out with claudia tuesday going out with my pep grp to plan wad to sell and the rest of the days im just gonna relax and rot : DD no actually got self training and projects but still, do step by step sure can do it one : DD yupp hopefully it'll be a productive and fruitful week : DD

2006-10-07T22:50:00.000+08:00

i miss those times
when we could speak on the phone
without any care
and know exactly what the other was thinkin
but all these are now just sweet memories
the bitterness of now is just so painful

):

2006-10-07T22:03:00.000+08:00

i feel worn out... went to shop for my deepavali costume since i wanna be a good girl and go visiting this time round yeahh.. went around the place for like 2hrs and i havent gotten anythin, nothing catches my eyes sigh... nothing ever will though nowadays got like halters and all which i i cant find! grrr my friends and cousins said have la but i wasnt able to find any so once again i need to go back there and get it. Well thats all about today i guess.. yeahh

2006-10-07T00:37:00.000+08:00

the feeling of standing outside and
looking inside feels empty
but its the best way to see the truth

thats how i feel

make sense?Go figure

2006-10-07T00:35:00.000+08:00

my dad came home late so i could only come on line at like 1130 ish yeahh and im not feeling to well right now.. i think im gonna sleep :/

2006-10-06T11:11:00.000+08:00

i'm in science class now.. kinda bored but not readin and i'm blog hoppin so yeahh its okayy... supposed to do science project but im slacking cuz i started e thing rolling but i'll join back in later... ARGGGGGHHHH I AM SO PISSED but still happy haha no la im not pissed im just sad? irritated? i dunno wad word to describe it... i lost 'connection' with a good friend.. not really lost laa but like we hardly talk and he just probably doesnt care.. and although we msged a bit for like 5 mins? last night, i know he just doesnt give a damn anymore.. hais.. but i guess these kinda stuff happen? okay i better get back to my work :/

2006-10-01T17:50:00.000+08:00

got my new balance shoes today like finally then went grocery shoppin and came home like 5... need to go causeway and get stuff but im not sure when i'm gonna go back yet..mood-less now..

Im not missing you
Been through just about everything that I could go through
When it comes to relationships
Dont know what I was missing or why I didnt listen
When I told myself that was it
Now here I go, hurt again
Cause of my curiousity
Now that its over
What else could it be
I made a promise never to settle
Why didnt I keep it?
Cause I hated the heartbreak
Crying and cheating, the fooling around
But Im not missing you
Im not going through the motions
Waiting and hoping you call me
Im not missing you
You might have had me open
But I must be going because
I got life to do
I know Im usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you gone
But this time its different
I dont even feel the distance
Im not missing
Im not missing you
Its a shame in a way cause
I feel that I may not ever find the right one for me
Did I leave him, is he right in front of my face oh
Will my true love ever be?
Why would I go on a search again
When I know what the end will be
What good is love when it keeps on hurting me?
I made a promise never to settle
Why didnt I keep it?
Cause I hated the heartbreak
Crying and cheating, the fooling around
No I cant be with you
Cause Im scared i felt like I was falling when you left me
I cant keep going through life
Unaware of what I missed
And the person I could be
Loves good when its right
And when its left in your memory
All the times I let you down
I guess love will be nice for someone elses life
But Im not missing you
Im not going through the motions
Waiting and hoping you call me
Im not missing you
You might have had me open
But I must be going because
I got life to do
I know Im usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you gone I used to hate it
Oh different, oh feel the distance
Im not missing
Im not missing you
Im not going through the motions
Waiting and hoping you call me (knockin at my door)
You might have had me open
But I must be going because (its the best day of my life)
I know Im usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you gone
Oh different, feel the distance
Im not missing
Im not missing you
Im not missing you (oh baby)
Im not missing you
Im so over you
It aint even a problem

2006-09-30T20:32:00.000+08:00

haha that pic abit weird laa but its kinda sweet? hahah new skin : DD

2006-09-30T11:08:00.000+08:00

okay, my week was alright not much work and not much trg..yeahh ohh, on thursday i fasted water and food from 535 in e morning till 7 in e afternoon : DD and i still trained and all.. God is amazing : DD but then i imagine all my muslim firneds doing it for a month and im like thinking wow...and then u think of those that dont even get to breakfast, fasting is wad they do each day cuz they have no choice.. and then i realize hey i'm so selfish i waste water and food while others are dying to have a portion of what i have for a meal.. i realised how fortunate we are (: yupp anyway, other than that nth happened except for the fact that i took the worng bus home and i only realised like an hour later and i stopped in e middle of i donno where and had to wait for a taxi for like half an hour e worse part was i got rejected by 3 taxis cuz they were going to pasir ris, yishun tampinese...yeahh and on top of that i needed e toilet haha well i finally made it back home like 11 ish? when i left caueway at 9? smth like that... hahah ohh well now i know to be more careful ((: these kinda things happen.

2006-09-30T11:04:00.000+08:00

hey : D i just got this lovely email from nicholas and i'll post it here, thanks nicholas : DD

*What does seeking God's kingdom look like?*
God-seeking prayer isn't an act; it's a lifestyle. It's about living for God's glory. Loving others and seeing what God is up to in the world. And when we do that, it changes our prayers. It's not /me, me, me/. It's about God.There's that great story in Mark 10. The Zebedee brothers, James and John, ask
Jesus for a favor: "Let one of us sit at your right and the other at your left in your glory." Jesus basically replies, "Wrong prayer, guys." Then here comes blind Bartimaeus a couple verses later. When Jesus asks what he wants, Bartimaeus says, "Rabbi, I want to see." I think that's what seeking prayer is all about. It's us asking to see the world as God sees it. When we know God's perspective, we know how to pray.

*Do prayer chains and groups promote this personal work of /seeing/?*
Praying with others teaches us to love. We have to listen, wait our turn, offer compassion, withhold judgment, show up on time. No wonder Jesus says in Matthew 18:20 that when two or three of us get together in his name, he'll be in our midst!But I think the Lord's pleased with these efforts. And what he wants most is to be glorified by his creation. People who understand that can pray powerfully together. Even if God delays his
answer, waiting together is better than waiting alone!

*But what's the point of persistent prayer if God doesn't seem to answer?*
Because, along the way, /we/ change.Recently, my best friend was praying for an old college buddy who was terminally ill. She even flew clear across country to pray over her beloved friend. A few weeks later, the college buddy died in a hospice and my friend was devastated”/and/ angry at God. Why did he send her in faith if he wasn't going to answer? But as we talked, she recalled how grateful her friend was that she'd traveled so far to comfort her. My friend learned the healing was in her willingness to go and be a friend.It's the /process/ of prayer that refines us. We go out in faith, and God takes care of the outcome.

*But aren't we supposed to ask God for the things we want?*
Well, Jesus doesn't say that! He said in John 15:7, "If you /remain/ in me and my words
/remain/ in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be given to you." Prayer is being in process before God. It's /keep on/ asking. /Keep on/ seeking. /Keep on/ knocking. And our transformation is what glorifies God.

*Are you saying the outcome isn't important?*

What's more important is to surrender to God. The other things? He'll add them, but in his way and in his time. This is trusting and paying attention. I've overlooked answers I wasn't expecting.1 Corinthians 13 backwards and forwards, up and down. And I prayed: /Oh Lord! What is love? How does it look, feel, sound, act?/ Then one day I realized love is a lifestyle. It starts with loving God, then yourself and others as yourself. This is mountain-moving work. But the struggle and the lifestyle glorify God.

*How did prayer help you come to terms with your failures large and small?

*Prayer helped me hear the Lord's forgiving voice. I stopped condemning myself. Broken, failed people are people God can redeem and use. The Bible's filled with them”David, Peter, Paul, Moses, even Eve! When we fail, the Lord offers another way to become better at
being usable ¦ but only after prayer. Oswald Chambers says it so perfectly: "Prayer doesn't equip us for greater works, prayer is the greater work."

Copyright Â© 2006 by the author or Christianity Today International/Today's Christian Woman magazine.

2006-09-23T23:11:00.000+08:00

watch the netballers dance http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5zgunfI2b7o

2006-09-23T15:16:00.000+08:00

i was blog hoppin and i realised alot of people seem to have probs with e teachers... i mean its not like the teachrs wanna make hell for us, they just care and i wish people would understand that. i know our teachers arent perfect but neither are we... they have more experiance so they're there to guide us. i'm not exactly a fan of all our teachers cuz they show favour towards all those better students but at least they're not against me then it doesnt bother me... dont get in their way and they wont get in yours..stop critisizing them gosh

2006-09-23T14:38:00.000+08:00

okay im like supposed to be in church now but i got locked in at home ): i geniously left my key in school. oh wells i guess i'm dying of hunger and just simply rotting here.. i hope my daddy comes home soon. i'm not feeling good now. i feel mixed up and totally lost and uncomfortable. i know i'll get over it. but i'v been keepin something to myself and i wish i could tell my friends but im afraid and i dont feel the trust. though i totally trust queenie i just cant seem to tell her either.but i donno... i just wanna sleep over it in hope this feeling will go away when i wake up.
though i know this only happens in fairytales

2006-09-09T18:35:00.000+08:00

had tons of fun today, went out with queenie chris and andy...was a blast... we watched monster house was scary :/ lol i guess it was more fun cuz i got to spend it with the three of them ((: ohh gosh i love you guys hee..we walked around saw some cancer thingy like alot of local bands performin...andy went crazy cuz he missed his fav band west something boulevard lol.. blehh i think i spelt it wrong..hahh yeahh thats about it...

i love queenie
i love chris
i love andy

: DDD

2006-09-08T11:09:00.000+08:00

close your eyes and listen.
walk twenty paces farthur than u thought necessary
just when you're certain u lost your way completely
you're there
open your eyes

2006-09-08T10:34:00.000+08:00

hahah goshh hmmm lets see if im not mistaken im going to bugis again! haha yeahh with my aunt ohh yeahh she fixed an appointment for my massage next saturday before church : DD hee i'm so happy lol... yeahah... hmm lets see im slept at 240am! when i was supposed to sleep like 130... why? because of my dear paul thats why..i swear his persuasion skills have impoved majorly he convinced to keep talkin till i cannot tahan anymore...but i had fun though... and i had the most amazing dream which i dont wana share hee butf it was just cool.. yeahh and i realised that i only live life once and im gonna make full use of it... i'm contemplating triple science i think i'll give it a go.. i'm willing to put in extra time.. i know its gonna be tough but i think its worth it. i mean with the support of the teachers and my coach(whoever it may be) i know and i can pull through but most importantly i know that God'll carry me through it ((: well i'm off do finish up on work now..

2006-09-08T00:54:00.000+08:00

hahah okay so far today was a whole bunch of fun...met up with hin ann at 1 then we went like shoppin laughin at the clothes hahaha yeahh then met up with ira and mel at macs and sat there 2hours slackin and planning at the same time(very progressive) ahhah then they claimed i was a health freak..am not!! haah then err went like walkin everywhere like circles and all..went art museum, national library etc and took videos of old lookin buildings...like walk in circles man... i like bugis though..reminds me of that time : DDD hahah yeahh then we like went to banquet slacked and had dinner and stuff then discussed somemore then like left at 8? hahah came home watches sg idol for a while then came to the com to slack then i realised i had work to do so till now im doin work...but chattin with my cartoon teacher and ridzwan hahah yeahh...they nice people((: never knew my cartoon teacher was so funny lol ohh and one conference goin on jasper queenie ira sayzwan but im not takin part lol..well thats about it for my day anyway hahah

2006-09-07T23:10:00.000+08:00

DIRECTIONS TO OUR FATHER'S HOUSE.
Make a Right onto Believeth Blvd.
Keep straight and go through the Green Light, which is Jesus Christ.
There, you must turn onto the Bridge of Faith , which is over troubled water.
When you get off the bridge, make a Right turn and Keep Straight.
You are on the King's Highway - Heaven-bound.
Keep going for three miles: One for the Father, One for the Son, and One for the Holy Spirit.
Then exit off onto Grace Blvd.
From there, make a Right turn on Gospel Lane .
Keep Straight and then make another Right on Prayer Road.
As you go on your way, Yield Not to the traffic on Temptation Ave.
Also, avoid SIN STREET because it is a DEAD END.
Pass up Envy Drive , and Hate Avenue.Also, pass Hypocrisy Street ,
Gossiping Lane, and Backbiting Blvd.
However, you have to go down Long-suffering Lane, Persecution Blvd. and Trials and Tribulations Ave.
But that's all right, because VICTORY Street is straight ahead.AMEN!

2006-09-07T10:54:00.000+08:00

today was a bit better woke up at 7? but this time didnt get up at all then woke up at 9 again then finally at 1030 i got out : DD haha yeahh gotta go bathe and stuff but im super lazy...Going to bugis later hopefully its gonna be fun : DD ahaa yeahh and im in a much better mood now : DD hee kk thats all...

2006-09-06T13:59:00.000+08:00

hahah okayy today i was supposed to wake up like late late la then guess wad time i woke up? worse then ystd 6am! like wad the heck blehh...but after that i went to brush teeth etc and went back to sleep... hahah woke up then brush teeth etc all over again hahah...blehh im weird i know : DD yeahh after that had a light brunch hee... yupp and now here i am..omg i just realised i always thought that r was after s haha kk im dumb i know : DD lol okay i was so bored that i put in a password and the worse part is that some people dont even know it lor...i mean hello dont all my friends that know me know that i love black? goshh..kk nvm...i realised somethin about the way i talk and stuff...

i always say blehh when i dunno wad to say or if i say somethin wrong
and although i used to hate it when people said kk to me i realised i say it ALOT
kk and lastly t "hahah" is like inconsistant hahah...yeahh lol

2006-09-05T20:13:00.000+08:00

haha i just realised that after each post theres the leave me alone
hahahaha only realised it : DD okayy today was super funn...went out with paul...hahah damn lame larr we can crap for super long lol...watched devil wears prada...then met chris who went get a haircut at cine lol then queenie as well then we all went together had a blast lol..and im back here omg the show totally rocks larr...hahah yeahh nth else i guess...ohh yahh today i planned to sleep till damn late like 11plus 12plus then i ended up waking up at 830 :/ lol then brush teeth and all went back to sleep etc...then got bored when i woke up so paul and i decided to go out blehh i jut realised i started with the middle of my day then to beginnin lol..ohh wells yeahh tts about it...

2006-09-04T22:34:00.000+08:00

okay today was a really weird day...started the day by oversleepin till 645 then rushed to kallang...slacked til 1130 then 1130 all the way till 3plus unmpire straight no rest...except that i sat down during one game was too tired man...yahh and im definately tanned even more )): yupp and on top of that i feel moody...and depressed for some weird awkward reason...and desperately cravin for something to eat but nothing i look at seems appetizing...and the worst part is that i want to sleep now but i cant! im like too tired to sleep...and tmr i dunno if im going out i just wanna stay home...but i dun wanna stay home all the way blehh...and i think i contradict myself too much..grr..i dun feel like bloggin but i want to..i think its all the sun thats makin me feel so weird...anyway after the thingy went with geri to plaza sing..was real fun sat down talkin and stuff and went to carefour///then went to chck out the phones and stuff and here i am feelin so darn weird..right now im just irritated and moodless...

2006-09-02T15:07:00.000+08:00

haha okay ira and cherie sent me this email and i totally loved it and i spent like 20mins tryin to send it cuz i liked it alot and there were too many people to send it to...so i like had to choose and in the end i think it got messed up and the attachment kinda wasnt there..sorry u guys anyway why not post it here eh? hahah..i just highlighted words i liked : DD sorry bout the colours im in a colourful mood hahah...

Have you ever wondered which hurts the most?
Saying something and wishing you hadn't?, or
Saying nothing and wishing you had?

I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say.
Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them.
If you do, they might break your heart...if you don't, you might break theirs.

Have u ever decided not 2 become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person?

Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn't.You can't tell your heart what to do. It does it on its own........when you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to.

Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you?

Too many of us stay walled up because we are too afraid to care too much...for fear that the other person does not care as much, or even at all.

Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle?

We tell lies when we are afraid... afraid of what we don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us. But every time we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger.Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump.

Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have done, or could have had.

* What would you do if every time you fell in love you had to say good-bye?
*What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there?
*What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt? (even if it is that you don't care anymore)
*What would you do if you loved someone more than ever and you couldn't have them?
*What would you do if you never got the chance to say I am friends with all of my family and they know I love them?
*People live, but people die. I want to tell you that you are a friend.

If you died tomorrow (God Forbid)
you would bein my heart.
Would I be in yours?
Do you care about me as much as I care about you

You might be best friends one year, pretty good friends the next year, don't talk that often the next, and don't want to talk at all the year after that.

So, I just wanted to say, even if I never talk to you again in my life, you are special to me and you have made a difference in my life, I look up to you, respect you, truly cherish you , most of all I CARE about friends

Send this to all your friends, no matter how often you talk, or how close you are, and send it to the person who sent it to you. Let old friends know you haven't forgotten them, and tell new friends you never will. Remember, everyone needs a friend someday you might feel like you have NO FRIENDS at all, just remember this e-mail and takecomfort in knowing somebody out there cares about you and ..... always will.. I care about YOU !!

2006-08-27T16:14:00.000+08:00

okay let me just apologise to all e sec ones who think i have a prob with u...i dont.. i hardly even know most of u... dont listen to those people who got nothin better to do then to cook up lies.. dont let wad they say make u create enemies... and to those people who have nothin better to do then to cook up these nonsense please be more sensitive and consider people that u affect...well at least after clearing up with people i have made more friends.. and im glad..what i hate abt all of this is that i was misunderstood and thats wad i hate the most grrr...okay nvm.... im glad its all almost over and done with...ohh yeahh and to anyone who thinks i hate them or smth please come talk to me cuz i seriously dont hate anyone((:

2006-08-25T19:47:00.000+08:00

okay the week was alright...nothing much but i hurt my back and its irritatin and painful but im sure ill recover fast and get back to netball.. im not really in the mood to blog maybe later...

2006-08-21T21:32:00.000+08:00

okay today was okay..classes kinda slacked yeahh...im startin to enjoy the english project actually : DD hahah yeahh...morning no training so nothing much yeahh afternoon nothing really just 20 times up and down the track hahah yeahh in sdc now doin work but slackin hahah yeahh..damn sian haha.. i think im becomin a planning organized freak i've been planning all my work and all kinds of stuff.. haha yeahh thats all i guess gotta get back to work...

2006-08-20T16:00:00.000+08:00

i just realised how much of a drastic change this is from my older blogskin..from dark and black to bright and white haha yeahh...i kinda like it cuz my whole team is there took me about 1 hour plus to do it but i finally did..im so happy(: actually i shoulf be studying now but i really cant )): but i will later though...yupp...was supposed to go to orchard but cancelled so im meetin bhaama at causeway at 8..yeahh i gotta work hard this module need to improve my overall score for end of the year i gotta focus and work harder im not working hard enough..sigh..haha okay nevermind(: okayy thats all i guess yupp ((:

2006-08-19T14:55:00.000+08:00

i feel the sudden urge to revive my blog : DD okay today i somehow feel sick donno why and plus my stomach hurts and ive got tons of homework right next to me now i just dont want to look at it but yeahh...i must do it though...i pray i get more strength to do this...and tomorrow got that netball thing which is from 8am to 6pm for goodness sakes!! sighs and im so darn tired ohh wells so today is all i have to study so i gotta start craking i guess..yeahh and i think i'll blog more often haha... yeahh.. but itll be really short like this...yeahh..

nobody knows what i feel i wish i could tell

2006-08-18T20:49:00.000+08:00

Back from thailand last week yeahh it was bette than i expected got an extra boost of interest in shopping i cant wait for my sis to come to singapore we're gonna be goin major shoppin my mums gonna give us 500 each : DDDD hahahaha wheee and im also saving up now : DD whee hahah overly excited right now hehe yeahh nothing else to say...

2006-07-29T21:04:00.000+08:00

okay bloggin cuz someone wants my blog updated..but no one even reads it anyway..
okay today had open house... didnt have much duties..yeahh could leave by four but stayed til about 5plus hahah...yeahh was quite okay la.. but the p6s so kiddish man...but wad to expect.. i guess we were like that when we were their age too... ohh yeahh and i shall try to bve nicer to them : D i think im a meanie hahah.. okay went to prata house place opposite bukit timah...omg!! it just rocks... queenie and i had loads of funn : DDD yeahh hahah... okays well tmr go for drums then see my relatives then come back to school..sianz... i enjoy school just that i hate the english ohh man the project is like superr tough laa.. hais... okay i'll just work harer i guess.. yeahh.. and i think i'l be taking bio and either hist or lit... not sure.. depends on trhe book i guess ill go find out the bok needed for lit..see if its intesting... yeahh... im like super tired now... dunno why..didnt even do much la..okay i guess thats all i gotta say..

2006-07-14T21:04:00.000+08:00

MY BLOG IS DEAD AND SO AM I :D

2006-07-09T16:37:00.000+08:00

todayw as an awesome day so farr... had drum lessons and today ws extra awesome and superr nice :D yeahh then went out with my dad...i actually enjoyed it..came back to rest...might go out with my daddy and watch a movie soon... MIGHT..hahahh yeahh and i plan to stay up..no not to watch soccer but actually to study hahah...yeahh..well thats about it :D

2006-07-07T22:41:00.000+08:00

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2006-07-03T12:20:00.000+08:00

okay today is like a superr slacked day...yeahh later on going to kallang then back to school... i enjoy school :D hopefully this week there'll be more work to do hahah...

2006-07-02T10:55:00.000+08:00

okay i know my blogs pretty much dead.. just that im so sick of bloggin and i dont know why hahah...well im so happy today cuz my teachers sick so i dont need to go for lssons :D hahah yeahh and ive got church from 4-7 and i think cherie can come whoopee...hahah yeahh..had a good conference with giselle and lenice till like 1 plus hahah..yeahh i love them :D okay i think thats all hahah..

2006-06-25T16:00:00.000+08:00

okay tonight im gonna be going back to school.. i think im ready mayb not..aiyah donno ah.. hahah yupp okay i havent got much to say, lately i've been feelin emotionless...i dont know why.. yupp going to school in like a while yeahh... oh and im straight by the way...

2006-06-23T21:37:00.000+08:00

okay today was a very very very tiring day...im going to bed..

2006-06-21T08:49:00.000+08:00

okay so i havent been faithful in bloggin..owell.. hahah.. err lets see i cant rmb wad i did ystd.. oh yeahh went to queenie house at one, stayed there till 7 plus was really funn... we watched mean girls, for my 21st time! gosh i think i can set a record man! hahah must aim for more..today im gonna go watch cars:D or over the hedge:D yupp then go for my game at 7 (= yeahh i have NO IDEA who we're playin...yupp, but im ready for the game man..but now time to sleep again!!

2006-06-18T20:49:00.000+08:00

okayy lets see... i would update on my previous days but i dont rmb a single thing goshh... okay err lets see i am so glad queenies back... hehe..ohh yeah on thursday went out with my ex netball team then went orchard with qyeenie we stayed out till like 11 plus then finally went home. then on friday we watched xmen3 at j8 like finally!! and then went to her house to hang out.. then on saturday and sunday had tha netball thing... oh guess wad i just updated on my other days without realising it hahahah so retarded well i had a good and looong nap.. and i have no idea how im gonna sleep tonight.. and i better cuz tmr night i got compeition..

broken heart

2006-06-13T18:47:00.000+08:00

today was quite alright.. went to school for physio.. then i had a nice long run.. an hour!! hehe shiok ah... then cherie and i had lunch, i had chicken rice... then we went around shopping... i was in search of a new bag haha.. but didnt find any, then she went home and i hung out with the trackers, mei xian, amanda and piriyah... then i went to tamil class... only 5 of us... hehe, err piriyah, bhaama, pravin, madhu and myself.. yeah then madhu and i were discussin answers for our work cuz he let us.. then he said that madhu could go cuz he came at 130 and bhaama and piriyah could go cuz they did their higher mother tongue thing then i begged my teacher like nuts and he let me off too!! hehe yupp then i went causeway with bhaama then she left for her class reunion thingy p6 one... yupp i walked around causeway on my own.. then finally went home... relaxin now, waiting for my dad to bring dinner... =) soo hungry,,,

2006-06-12T22:15:00.000+08:00

okay today was a fun day, trainin ended at 930!!! only one hour shiok!! ahhh then had a lovely lunch with my team mates... i love em hehe.. yupp then went to watch shes the man... omg the movie was so funny i havent laughed so hard before gosh!! hahah hilarious!! lol... yupp now im just dead tired...bye.

2006-06-11T18:46:00.000+08:00

okay, today was alrite, i woke up at 9?10? somewhere there haha yupp.. then went to plaza sing.. didnt do much, got my hair dryer? hehe... yupp then i came back thn went to church... surprisingly, it was fun.. i learnt alot more abt the lights controls and stuff which was pretty good.. yupp came back and went for dinner.. didnt do much today, but im tired yawn... gonna go watch x-men2 now :P

2006-06-10T23:00:00.000+08:00

hahah today was a very slacked day in the mornin. i woke up at 10 had a bath and had my breakfast. Then i went back to sleep !! can u believe it im sucha pig, then i woke up at 3?? and went to meet geri, bhaama and ira at toa payoh. Then we had our lunch (really late one hehe) then had my duty at nsl.. was quite already had to usher e vvip to a parkin space and then slack and watch e show then had to be the plaque card holders, donno if i spelt it right haha. yupps then came back with bhaama and ira.. had fun with them.. teasin each othe rand all.. yupp i think im gonna turn in... at least tmr im going shoppin hehe and got church at two some tech team thingy... i wish i wasn't in the tech team =( i dont enjoy it sighs.. ohh well gonna turn in now.. :D

2006-06-09T15:52:00.000+08:00

nothing to do then i saw this in shalina's blog :D

Name 20 people you can think of rightnow.Don't read the questions until you have named the 20 people.At the end of it all, choose 5 people to do this.
Ready? Start~!
1. Queenie
2. shalina
3. shafinas
4. chris
5. lenice
6. giselle
7. andy
8. bhaama
9. ira
10. tammie
11.paul
12. sid
13. aiman
14. krystle
15. ruben
16. cherie
17. ridzwan
18. jannah
19. claudia
20. melody

Now here are the questions!

How did you meet #14?
ooh thats interestin, in e okayground when we were younger:D

What would you do if you never met #1?
i wouldn't have know there were so much nice food in the world!

What would you do if #20 and #9 dated?
err... be grossed out that they're les??

Did you ever like #19?
hahah wad the... not in that wayy??

Would #6 and #17 make a good couple?
hahah no wayy...

Describe #3.
sweet.retarded.blur lovely(:

Do you think #8 is attractive?
bhaama? yeah she pretty=)

Tell me something about #7.
used to be an awesome friend

Do you know any of #12's family?
hahah yeah his mom! had lunch at e airport :D

What are #12's favourites?
porn! hahah jk hmmm i dunno le...

What would you do if #18 confesses that he/she likes you?
jannah? hahah well i'll be freaked cuz i'll be livin in e same room as her! haha

What language does #15 speak?
hahah ah beng language

Who is #9 going out with?
hahah she confused state now la hehe

How old is #16 now?
hahah 14 but looks like a cute little kid hahha

When was the last time you spoke to #13?
just a while ago hahah

Who is #2's favourite singer/band?
hahah duhh paul twohill! an idiot wouldn't know that... i think hehe

Would you ever date #4?
hahah wad the.. no.. he's my best friend :D

Would you ever date #7?
hahah no... hardly know him anymore...

#17 single?
hahah no he's got quite a couple of gay partners hehe

What is #10's last name?
TEO!

Would you ever be in a serious relationship with #11?
hahah pauls never serious how to have a relationship with him?

What school does #3 go to?
sports school

Where does #6 live?
near me, stayed at her house bunch of times :D miss those times

What's your favourite thing about #5?
hahah her sweetness and her style:DD

Have you seen #1 naked?
HAHAH NO..

2006-06-09T11:16:00.000+08:00

okay today i was supposed to go physio and all... but the lazee pig(me) woke up at 11? hehe i know rite.. im nuts man... well i was like doing my work but im just resting now, so i decided to blog.. hahah yupp my last two days were pretty good... cant rmb anything actually hehe.. major short term lol... hmm... i guess today im just gonna rot at home and study and slrrp and eat and sleep and stay online e whole day!! hahahha... hols is the only time to relax, im gonna take advantage of it!!! haha i think i'll blog later :D

2006-06-06T14:38:00.000+08:00

Today was a very relaxing day, woke up at like 745 heheh couldn't wake up... then, went to e physio.. shiok sia, ms grace massage damn power! then did some new exercises and strengthenin stuff, then relaxed for another massage... had a nice chat with, she's really friendly.. then went to the gym for a run... juz 20 mins then after that, cherie and i decided to go back. But it was like rainin realy heavily, so we were like okay juz run with her umbrella... then we ran la... but more like speed walk.. we finally reached the bus stop totally drenched.. heheh.. then went to causeway for lunch... so filling was so full after that.. Then i had my bubble tea and went on e bus... im almost done with my neverending story book... had very little time to read it.. so makin use of e hols (=

5 june 06

2006-06-05T22:43:00.000+08:00

wow today was a packed day... firstly, had trainin in the morning... was late! surprisingly, noraida wasn't angry and stuff!! hahah yupp gym repetition increased 3X12 not too bad but tiring ah... then after that had this whole skipping session... i think my skipping has improved (= yupp then went to jurong point for lunch... walk walk then went back with ira... went home relax for a while then went for my competition...Whoa it rocked mann!! had so much fun.. although we lost, it was really fun.. had a good game, though i think we could've won la... but who cares, winning ain't everythin(= i played GD last quater.. WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE :D hahah yupp now im like soo tired... yawn... tmr goin to physio for massage whoa shiok ah... tehn go watch jrs train and go home? i think....

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2006-06-04T21:53:00.000+08:00

I guess i was very irritated that i couldnt get my old blog back.. but i guess its something new.. cant do anythin so i'll just smile and move on (= hols just started, time to rest and relax but of course theres like competitions and tranings and all... but im ready and pshyched up for it (= I am started to really feel really happy for no reason.. i think its a good thing, got more reasons to smile or im getting senial hehe... well its gettin late and ive got tranin tmr morning and competition as well... So i gotta sleep? hahah yupps... off now.. later..